I’ve decided to take a break from friends. I did this on a whim. It began with me feeling the lack of support around me. I’m always the good friend, I listen, I give advice, I care. What I really miss is having people around me that actually asked me how I am doing, sharing even the slightest bit of excitement that I have for my projects. I miss talking to friends about lame TV shows, gossiping about nothing, excited about everything. I really miss having a best friend, the kind of friend you do all those things with. I’ll just say it: I’m tired of caring about others and no one giving a shit about me, the real me – Not me who gives advice about the same BS situation over and over again. Sometimes I ask myself who these people in my life are. I can’t even say these things without causing offense.A little over a week ago, it was my dad’s two year anniversary of his passing. Not one friend called, not one sent a text message. I felt my dad’s presence and told none of them.
I’m already mentally and emotionally spent taking care of my entire family which consists of my husband (always at work), 2 kids (infant, toddler), and 2 dogs (1yr, 2.5 yr), and running an entire household which is all done on very little sleep. Every. Single. Day. I’m known as Super Mom amongst family and friends but even the most super of beings yearn to be cared for.
I just miss having true friends. I kind of miss the friends I used to have. That feels like a lifetime ago, before the family life. Making friends is difficult anyway. Should I be thankful for the ones I have and just deal? Am I just being ungrateful? I think I would rather be friendless and lonely. You can’t force people to care.
I don’t know…
I have been looking forward to October! This month brings a life changing new adventure. It’ll be a complete 180, now that’s exciting.
Found these gems on Craig’s List for… Free! I love the vintage two tier side table. I’ve wanted one since I saw a listing not too long ago but was not willing to pay for it. The person who put these out was an artist. The drawers and side table are covered in layers of paint. So we will sand them down, paint, maybe decoupage, and throw on some nice knobs. My head is spinning with endless possibilities. I think we will take this project on a couple months from now. I want to do the side table first. So excited!
Along with these items, I found a few pieces of tiles, granite rocks, new picture frames with matting, vintage wooden tray, and a cork board. Aside from the granite rocks, I have ideas to up-cycle the rest of the items. I see an Etsy account in the near future.
I love CL because you can find what you need for free or pretty darn cheap. I am definitely the creative type, refurbishing furniture and other items seems like it will be a fun hobby. I’m still looking for a book shelf. We have books and other items that need a home. I’d like to find Bear Cub’s books in a neat area rather than rummaging through boxes when we move into our new home. Then again, Dr. Seuss is coffee table material.
Well it looks like Hubby and I will be moving soon. We were planning on saving as much as we could and move to the valley but it is extremely difficult living with my family. It’s just a toxic environment. I’ll get into that some other time.
Anyway, I love Craig’s List. I’ve found some really great stuff on there, including pets and jobs. I have been looking for lamps for our new place. Look what I found, it’s so pretty! The gal took good care of the lamp. It is in new condition. A new lamp would have cost $15. I paid $5 cash. I also purchased a white side table from her for $5. Awesome finds, very pleased.
White side table from Ikea
White table lamp from Ikea