Ahhh, Parenthood

I had a baby! Yep, I sure did – In May. I’m just a total slacker. I’ve been lazy about jotting down memories and organizing photos. I’ll just go ahead and blame that on the lack of sleep, and time and well, pure laziness. I had some complications during labor and had to deliver emergency cesarean. That was my first time having surgery other than having my wisdom teeth extracted. As clumsy as I am, I’ve never broken a bone or anything. *Knocks on wood*

So yeah, contractions hurt. A lot. I’ve never experienced such terrible pain in my life. I mean, WOW! I was actually moaning and screaming from the top of my lungs towards the end. The epidural was given later, the doctors wanted to wait and so I just tried to deal with the pain. They administered pain medication via IV which only last 45 minutes. They then gave it to me two more times but it had zero effect. So when the doctors finally gave me the epidural, I felt MUCH better. One thing though, in my Childbirth Preparation class, the instructor said that you don’t really feel the epidural, that it’s just a slight pressure. Um, that was a total lie. I am not ashamed to admit that I yelped out in pain during the procedure. It was a difficult task – Trying to sit still while having mind blowing contractions and crying. Hubby said after the epidural was administered, the charts showed HIGH peaking contractions back to back. Yikes! I guess I got it in time.

The good thing about this is that with my next pregnancy I can have another cesarean which means no contractions and pain. The downside of having a c-section was postpartum recovery. My body was so swollen from all of the IV liquids. I remember trying to pick something up from the floor and feeling the skin stretch on my legs as if they were going to tear apart. It was a little scary. My stomach hurt so much. I was so incredibly sore and exhausted. I didn’t rest much while in the hospital. I was in labor for about 26 hours or so. It was terrible. I don’t have anything other to compare it to but I would want a c-section delivery again. My doctor said a normal birth is absolutely terrible. She pretty much told me not to go that route because I wouldn’t be able to handle it. I think she’s right.
Hubby and mom were there to support me – That’s what got me through it. And the moment the nurse brought my Bear Cub over for a quick glimpse made it all worth it. The rest of the surgery after that took up to 45 minutes to complete. I was so anxious, time went by slow, too slow. I asked the doctor who was watching over me if I could close my eyes and sleep! After surgery, I went into recovery and was able to hold my baby. It was amazing! I was looking at this little ball of fat with incredibly huge eyes looking back at me. I’ll never forget those moments.

Almost 2 months later, Hubby and I have adjusted to parenthood quite well. It was tough at first as expected. Once I accepted that I won’t getting much sleep anymore it got easier and my mood was better. Bear Cub was waking up every 2 hours to feed, it was exhausting. Now it’s a little better. He still mostly gets up every 2 hours but we are used to it now. I really think I lucked out with Hubby. He’s such a good man, husband, and father. He took such good care of me while I was pregnant. Here he is now changing dirty diapers, taking care of feedings, and day/night shifts. He does it all with great enthusiasm. I’m lucky and so is our son. Being a mom gives me such joy. I love my son so much, I can’t even describe with words how I feel about him. He’s such a good baby, he only cries when he’s hungry or needs a changing. Watching him grow and develop is so amazing. We are so blessed. I am so blessed. I finally have my own family.